this is one of those ideas that has been simmering in the back of my mind and i'm not really sure it's completely cooked to make it beautiful in its wording but hopefully you will hear my heart on this.
sometimes i worry about being forgotten
about my own life not remembering me
especially as i wander
even as i wander
a phone call doesn't come an email is not responded to
and i wonder
especially as i wander
even as i wander
a missed coffee date or something else came up
and i wonder
especially as i wander
even as i wander
but i find comfort in this
God's love never fails, He is forever faithful
especially as i wander
even as i wander.
all of us want to be noticed, to make a mark in our worlds. even when we hide in plain sight or call attention to ourselves or hide behind our masks. and right now i am especially struggling with this...the last 3 years of "wandering" have taken their toll on relationships and my future holds further separation. but i do find hope in the Word of God...in the endless geneology lists and the lists of people who brought items for service or performed service in Leviticus and Nehemiah, in the very words of the Almighty Father found in Isaiah 49:15-16 ""Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me. " and even in His waiting on the snails to make it to the ark! (thanks terry, what a beautiful encouragement that post was)
so, right now my heart is full to overflowing...with love for my Father who does not forget. with love for my family and friends who although they sometimes do forget, they have been such blessings. with joy and excitement at His call on my life. and with trusting in Him...especially as i wander, even as i wander.
ps. right now i would like to be forgotten at work. i've been run off my feet this past week and done some things that i have never done or only done once or twice in my twelve years of nursing. and all b/c "they know i'm a good nurse and can handle it." please, please forget me for a few days! =)
25 January 2008
21 January 2008
thru an alien's eyes
i have a couple of ideas that have been running around in my mind and heart to share but both are still cogitating (is that even a word???) right now so i thought i would share some excerpts from a poem i read recently called "a martian sends a postcard home" by craig raine (who may or may not still be alive). since i'm only putting a few lines on here, if necessary i will add my own word in parenthesis to start from what was in previous line of poem.
"(books) they cause the eyes to melt or the body to shriek without pain.
mist is when the sky is tired of flight and rests...on the ground.
but time is tied to the wrist or kept in a box, ticking with impatience.
at night when all the colours die, they hide in pairs and read about themselves--in colour, with their eyelids shut."
such great words pics of crying and laughing and dreaming!!!!!!
"(books) they cause the eyes to melt or the body to shriek without pain.
mist is when the sky is tired of flight and rests...on the ground.
but time is tied to the wrist or kept in a box, ticking with impatience.
at night when all the colours die, they hide in pairs and read about themselves--in colour, with their eyelids shut."
such great words pics of crying and laughing and dreaming!!!!!!
16 January 2008
jar of perfume
from my morning reading today in Mark 14
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=mark%2014:1-11;&version=31;
how easy it is (lest I judge Judas too much) to turn to our own devices when God (Father, Son or Holy Spirit) does not meet our expectations of who He should be and how He should act. in the days when Jesus walked the earth, many turned away from belief because they expecteda warrior king. these turned from outright belief. but Judas was one of His very own who turned away from belief because of a jar of perfume. I myself turn away at times (not from belief) but to my own work if I get impatient for His work to be done in some way or a specific time in my own life. and His Church at times turns away over issues that are 'jars of perfume' (hymns/praise choruses, dancing or not, and so on).
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=mark%2014:1-11;&version=31;
how easy it is (lest I judge Judas too much) to turn to our own devices when God (Father, Son or Holy Spirit) does not meet our expectations of who He should be and how He should act. in the days when Jesus walked the earth, many turned away from belief because they expecteda warrior king. these turned from outright belief. but Judas was one of His very own who turned away from belief because of a jar of perfume. I myself turn away at times (not from belief) but to my own work if I get impatient for His work to be done in some way or a specific time in my own life. and His Church at times turns away over issues that are 'jars of perfume' (hymns/praise choruses, dancing or not, and so on).
14 January 2008
welcome
welcome to my new blog. i've decided to move. most likely i will continue my other accounts but will only post an update is on blogspot when i do updates. hopefully more people will be able to be part of this that way.
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