this is one of those ideas that has been simmering in the back of my mind and i'm not really sure it's completely cooked to make it beautiful in its wording but hopefully you will hear my heart on this.
sometimes i worry about being forgotten
about my own life not remembering me
especially as i wander
even as i wander
a phone call doesn't come an email is not responded to
and i wonder
especially as i wander
even as i wander
a missed coffee date or something else came up
and i wonder
especially as i wander
even as i wander
but i find comfort in this
God's love never fails, He is forever faithful
especially as i wander
even as i wander.
all of us want to be noticed, to make a mark in our worlds. even when we hide in plain sight or call attention to ourselves or hide behind our masks. and right now i am especially struggling with this...the last 3 years of "wandering" have taken their toll on relationships and my future holds further separation. but i do find hope in the Word of God...in the endless geneology lists and the lists of people who brought items for service or performed service in Leviticus and Nehemiah, in the very words of the Almighty Father found in Isaiah 49:15-16 ""Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me. " and even in His waiting on the snails to make it to the ark! (thanks terry, what a beautiful encouragement that post was)
so, right now my heart is full to overflowing...with love for my Father who does not forget. with love for my family and friends who although they sometimes do forget, they have been such blessings. with joy and excitement at His call on my life. and with trusting in Him...especially as i wander, even as i wander.
ps. right now i would like to be forgotten at work. i've been run off my feet this past week and done some things that i have never done or only done once or twice in my twelve years of nursing. and all b/c "they know i'm a good nurse and can handle it." please, please forget me for a few days! =)
About Me
- natalie
- ok, who am i? i am a believer in Jesus Christ, a daughter, a sister, a sister-in-law, an aunt, a friend, a nurse. i hate wearing shoes, i would go barefoot most of the time if i could. i don't really have a set style, one day it's all about being girly, the next its' about comfort and i wear pajamas and houseshoes in public, and the next it may be jeans and a punk shirt, it's all about the mood. most days, i can honestly say that when i got up and got dressed, i didn't think about you but just about what i wanted to wear (as long as it fits within societal norms). the most important thing in my life is my walk with God. some days i'm better at it than others. the next most important thing in my life is family and friends. being an aunt has been so rewarding but no more so than being a sister and a daughter, a friend. my friends live all over the world (literally). by profession, i am a nurse currently serving as a ward nurse on the m/v africa mercy.
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You are not forgotten. You are loved and prayed for. The ramp is still down and the doors are still open. He's there waiting for us both.
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